Youth

I sat on Bascom today and read Wizard's First Rule. I own the book, so this is around my 6th reading. First time was way back in seventh or eighth grade. As my perspectives on the world have changed, the influences I receive from the book have too. I think my mood also affects what I get out of the reading. I'm not sure if that means it's a good book, or a bad one, but it seems to get me going and that's what matters.

As the title of this entry suggests, Collective Soul has made a triumphant return to my playlist. My mom actually picked up the CD way back at Christmas (i think, after I got her hooked on them) and I wasn't impressed with it. Now it seems, that I may have been wrong. Although still disappointed with the overly heavy electronics and the seemingly repetitious lyrics of different songs, it is a good uplifting CD. I still think the blue one and disciplined breakdown are 10 times better, but compared to the stuff out right now, Youth, is pretty good. I suggest checking it out.

Blog Comments

In other news:

I added the comments to my blog heading after my Dad politely pointed out to me that knowing what I'm going to do more than 2 hours in advance isn't supernatural; it's normal.

Virus

My computer just got infected with a virus. No clue what one, but it definetly has/had one. Had to go psycho on the registry and other files. Not good, but the computer is working well again.

There's probably a good reason why I got this virus. One being that I just started downloading again. I've had to start using Captivate at work to create interactive demos for the old nurses. It seemed like a cool thing that we could use for AIESEC. I looked up legal programs, including Captivate and the least expensive are over $100. This lead me to believe that someone, somewhere, will have hacked this program and then shared it online.... I was right.

Does anyone with computer knowledge but without money still buy software? SOO much easier to just get the cracks.

Hell, virus hunting can even be fun. You learn shit.

I'm really freaking tired (I ran/lifted for an entire week straight).

I just made money writing this post

A couple days ago, after realizing I hadn't shaved in over a week, decided that I was going to change what facial hair stayed on my face. For some unknown reason, I decided on doing the chin thing, with a mustache. Why... I thought I would look more "ethnic". I hate being this white. I'm getting tan. I WILL BE TAN. I'm at the point where my new look looks bad, but could have a future if I just leave it. But I am soooo tempted just to shave off the stache once again. We'll see. I'm a compulsively lazy guy. I'll probably just decide to drink as soon as I get home for Williams' 21st instead of doing anything productive.

I need to run today. Anyone want to go to West Towne later?

Down to the wire

I've been trying to hold out on posting until the inevitable finally occurs, but alas, I have given in.

Sinus infection number 3 002 in the last 6 months is now upon me. As you may or may not know, sinus infections come in pairs. First I get the viral one where my nose never stops running and my throat gets sore from all the crap running down the back of it. Then I get number too: mr. bacteria. That's when my head starts pounding and my throat swells up to the size of a golf ball. I can't blow my nose because the bacteria seem to stick together more and it turns green now.

A person from work keeps giving me stuff to get tested for allergies for free. I think this new infection is the straw that will break my back. The catch for the test is that it's for studies. So they might not test everything I could possibly be allergic to, only the ones that they have studies for. Still seems worth it. Selling my body for research. Never thought this day would ever come. I hope I get some extra cash out of this, at least to pay for my new, wonderfully expensive anti-biotics.

I just received the company acceptance note, so it's official that I'm going to Japan. YES. I just wish I had something to focus my energy on that won't drag my mind back to the past. I've obviously been listening to a lot of rock music. It keeps the blood flowing and the energy up. Surprisingly, it isn't all hard rock and metal (well, MY defintion of hard rock and metal).

PS Someone in our house has put Collective Soul's blue album in the bathroom for listening while cleaning up. Never saw that coming.

Livin' on the edge

I just figured out that if I get a 90% on the final tomorrow, I can get a C in the course. That's right, I understand 90% of the material in the course, and I get a C. 75% is a D, and I better not get lower than that. Oh yeah, the class average on tests is a 76%. Homework and participation are bringing me down again. Honestly, what the hell are those grades for (other than screwing Bruni)? And why do I consistently not use them to my advantage?

25% of my grade is on participation and hw. that's 20 some points I should be automatically getting. NOPE. I have 5.1. Oh yeah. I have a lot of studying to do, and yet I feel fine. Something is seriously wrong with this picture. OK. I need to do some more analyzing.

Reminiscing

Asimov has been resurrected. A couple books from my not so distant youth have been checked out and are being thoroughly re-read and analyzed. Back to the good ol' days.

Work, moving, studying and then a test on Friday. Monday I'm starting the routine. Anyone want to lift regularly w/me? That way I won't drop the bar on my head (again).

Last thought: NEVER climb concrete walls that are taller than myself, when I'm wasted.

climbing over that hill

sometimes you just have to let the weak die and go on. That time is now. I'm studying my way. i'm passing this damn class. Adios muchachos. Sube que colina solomente.

Gettin' Old

My brother is graduating in 3 hours. One of my best friends from college just got engaged yesterday. And I'm actually taking a job where I have to do real engineering work. PS, I had my first drink with my brother last night, legally.

I'm sure I'll get over this feeling in a couple minutes after reading almost everyone else's blog on nomadlife who have been out of school longer than I've been in it. ;-)

New Beginnings

I just wrote a post that was about 3 pages long and only took me 15 minutes. LOTS OF EMOTIONS JUMBLED UP RIGHT NOW.

With that said, AIESEC-Madison, I will miss you. Although I have always wanted to do more, my time has come to leave. Good luck to everyone.

Tonight made it seem like I have already left, but I never had anywhere to go. Now I do. AIESEC-Kobe is the next stop, and I promise to make it a trip that no one there will forget. Not just for being a trainee, but for helping with the LC.

I am an engineer and I will make a difference in this world.

Tonight is my first step away from my failures of the past and towards my goals in the future.

Driven

morals, revenge, hate, force, love, dreams

all are apart of my drive. I invent things to make one overcome the rest. Why? cause I want to only feel one thing. Have ONE motivation. Have ONE goal. Have ONE drive.

marathon, my car, school, the one, my business, 10 exchanges, Japanese... all circling with no order.

Priorities are needed to be driven.
Priorities are needed to NOT drive yourself under.

Roller Coaster begins

The day after Mifflin. I didn't go to Mifflin. I feel good today, at least physically. I didn't enjoy the saturday all that much, but I didn't piss it away either. I need to do this more often.

I just got accepted to the traineeship in Japan. I'm scared out of my mind. I have no money and am not that emotionally stable. But fuck it; I'm going. I will find a way to pay for it all and have the trip I've dreamt about since the first time I saw a map of the world.

I have a lot more to blog about with my recent realizations and ass whoopings, but I will save them for later.

I do want to say thank you to all those who have helped me though. The little things did matter.